Tears and conversation
03/11/2025 18:28When was the last time you cried in front of another person?
For me it was on the phone with my friend
nyyki when Ghost decided to go basically no-contact with me in the beginning of September. (In my estimation, phone conversations absolutely count as crying in front of someone.)
I’m over the emotional immediacy of the feelings of bewilderment, abandonment, and betrayal. I still miss him and I really desperately miss the kitties sometimes, but I can deal with having been lied to about whether we would stay friends. I can deal with having given someone six months of space and had them instead of telling me that that wasn’t enough space just decide to cut contact completely. I can deal with not understanding why Ghost decided to stop growing or changing as a person. It’s not ideal, and I don’t deal well with not knowing important things that affect my life, it makes me neurotic and overthinky but it’s … well, it’s not fine, but it’s more disappointing and aggravating at this point and less the emotional equivalent of a freshly-broken toe. (Broken toes also make me cry. I can bear bad fibro flares like an adult, but broken toes make me tear up like an overstimulated toddler when something feels unfair.)
Thanks for sticking with me so far.
Relevant YouTube link behind the cut for folks whose screen readers may still be borked: ( Read more... )
So really: when was the last time you cried in front of someone? Feel free to comment here or to DM me or to ping me on other contact platforms. Anywhere you like, if you want to have a meaningful discussion about who you are, or what we have in common, etc..
For me it was on the phone with my friend
I’m over the emotional immediacy of the feelings of bewilderment, abandonment, and betrayal. I still miss him and I really desperately miss the kitties sometimes, but I can deal with having been lied to about whether we would stay friends. I can deal with having given someone six months of space and had them instead of telling me that that wasn’t enough space just decide to cut contact completely. I can deal with not understanding why Ghost decided to stop growing or changing as a person. It’s not ideal, and I don’t deal well with not knowing important things that affect my life, it makes me neurotic and overthinky but it’s … well, it’s not fine, but it’s more disappointing and aggravating at this point and less the emotional equivalent of a freshly-broken toe. (Broken toes also make me cry. I can bear bad fibro flares like an adult, but broken toes make me tear up like an overstimulated toddler when something feels unfair.)
Thanks for sticking with me so far.
Relevant YouTube link behind the cut for folks whose screen readers may still be borked: ( Read more... )
So really: when was the last time you cried in front of someone? Feel free to comment here or to DM me or to ping me on other contact platforms. Anywhere you like, if you want to have a meaningful discussion about who you are, or what we have in common, etc..